The Whore of Babylon

Could San Francisco be the infamous city of Revelation?

March 1946 somewhere out in the desert near Death Valley, two men and a woman attempted to invoke an ancient demon and conceive the anti-Christ.

Did it work?

Jack Parsons was one of the scientific minds behind the Jet Propulsion Laboritory at CalTech, which later spawned NASA, but he was also a devout occultist and student of the infamous Aleister Crowley. His friend, L. Ron Hubbard, was a science-fiction writer who later went on to establish the religion of Scientology which teaches that humans and aliens co-exist. Marjorie Cameron was an artist and poet in the beat movement who was supposedly going to be possessed by the goddess “Babalon” and carry a baby once their sex-magic rituals were successful.

She never did conceive, but somehow Parsons believed that the rituals worked.

Later on, Marjorie herself would come to believe the same. Constantly tormented by auditory hallucinations, suicide-ideation and visions of an asteroid wiping out the world, Cameron’s art reflected her mental state and drug use. The best example of this is a short film she did called The Wormwood Star.

For students of eschatology, or end-times prophesies, we all know the story of the Whore of Babylon foretold in Revelation 17 & 18. It is a great city of wealth and power which sits on seven mountains, controls commerce, is excessively rich, full of abominations, drunk on the blood of the faithful to God, and is the revived Roman Empire.

Albrecht Dürer – The Whore of Babylon (British Museum)

The account of the Apostle John was written in the first century AD during the zenith of the Roman Empire. John is given a vision of the end times and an angelic guide who shows him how it will unfold…

So he carried me away in the Spirit into the wilderness. And I saw a woman sitting on a scarlet beast which was full of names of blasphemy, having seven heads and ten horns. The woman was arrayed in purple and scarlet, and adorned with gold and precious stones and pearls, having in her hand a golden cup full of abominations and the filthiness of her fornication. And on her forehead a name was written:





I saw the woman, drunk with the blood of the saints and with the blood of the martyrs of Jesus. And when I saw her, I marveled with great amazement. Revelation 17:3-6 (NKJV)

The imagery of the beast is decoded by the book of Daniel, which describes different beasts and horns throughout the prophesy. In Daniel’s visions, the angel Gabriel translates the beasts as empires and the horns as kings, or smaller provinces within an empire.  Previously in Revelation 13 we are introduced to the beast without the whore riding it and the description is a chimera of the four beasts of Daniel: the lion of Babylon, the bear of Persia, and the Leopard of Greece.

We can see from the text that the beast we’re dealing with has seven heads and ten horns, but what does that mean exactly? Luckily, John has an angel guiding him through the vision…

“Here is the mind which has wisdom: The seven heads are seven mountains on which the woman sits. There are also seven kings. Five have fallen, one is, and the other has not yet come. And when he comes, he must continue a short time. The beast that was, and is not, is himself also the eighth, and is of the seven, and is going to perdition.” Revelation 17:9-11 (NKJV)

Since the vision is reminiscent of Daniel’s beasts predicting the empires who engage with Jerusalem at different times, we can assume the same is happening here. At the time John was writing, Rome was the head in existence so five empires must have fallen before that. If we look at biblical history, the first empire to deal with Israel was Egypt, then the Assyrians, then Babylon, Medo-Persia, and lastly Greece came through under Alexander the Great before Rome took over. After the Jewish people were sent into exile by the Romans, they could no longer occupy the Holy Land and in the interim it was part of the Ottoman Empire which took over the eastern half of the Roman empire and ruled from Istanbul, which was previously called Constantinople. The Ottoman empire fell after World War 1 and the different territories were split into the countries we see today such as Turkey, Iran, Egypt and Greece. The Jewish people were finally allowed to return to Israel after the atrocities of World War 2, which suitably shamed the world into helping them reclaim it.

So, since biblical times until now, seven empires have been involved with either Jerusalem or the Jewish people as a nation. Many assumed that Nazi Germany would be the final anti-Christ, however it wasn’t the right time because the Jewish people did not possess Jerusalem and they still don’t have a third temple built yet; all essential elements of Daniel’s prophesy. Now that they are back in the land, it’s only a matter of time before a temple is built, and once the daily sacrifices begin, the “son of perdition”, as the anti-Christ is also known, will stop the offerings and blaspheme the temple by declaring himself to be god.

This eighth empire was one of the seven, which means that there could be a resurgence of Babylon, which is currently Iraq, but that seems unlikely. Iran used to be Persia and they keep trying to get nuclear arms, so that’s a possible empire resurgence. However, the book of Daniel quashes all of these ideas when the angel says; “the people of the prince who is to come shall destroy the city and the sanctuary.” This is alluding to the time period after the Messiah comes and is cut off when the Jewish people reject Him. Since the Roman Empire was the group of people who crucified Jesus and destroyed the city in 70AD, and they did it during the time when it was ruled from Rome rather than from Constantinople, we can make an educated guess that there will be some sort of resurrected Roman Empire.

So we know who the heads are, but who are the horns? The angel continues explaining…

“The ten horns which you saw are ten kings who have received no kingdom as yet, but they receive authority for one hour as kings with the beast. These are of one mind, and they will give their power and authority to the beast.” Revelation 17:12-13 (NKJV)

Ten kings without kingdoms? What sort of king doesn’t have a kingdom?

To my mind, there are people today who neatly fit this description in the form of technocrats and business moguls. They don’t have territory on a map to speak of, nor do they hold a political office, and yet they exert considerable economic pressure and they control the cyber landscape of information to the extent that they have more power than a President, as evidenced by Twitter de-platforming Trump.

The angel goes on to explain that the kings will be waging war on Christianity and then describes the identity of the whore of Babylon;

Then he said to me, “The waters which you saw, where the harlot sits, are peoples, multitudes, nations, and tongues. And the ten horns which you saw on the beast, these will hate the harlot, make her desolate and naked, eat her flesh and burn her with fire. For God has put it into their hearts to fulfill His purpose, to be of one mind, and to give their kingdom to the beast, until the words of God are fulfilled. And the woman whom you saw is that great city which reigns over the kings of the earth.” Revelation 17:15-18 (NKJV)

How many major cities are built on seven hills?

Quite a few actually! Rome is an obvious choice, but by no means the only contender. Jerusalem is based on seven hills, but since that city is the object of attack in the prophesy, its not the likely culprit. Istanbul in modern-day Turkey sits on seven hills, which would fulfil the prophesy from the point of view of a Byzantine empire, as it was the last phase of Rome before total collapse. Washington DC is also on the list, plus it contains a hot-bed of occult symbolism and masonic roots which we don’t have time to explore here.

What about the seven hills of San Francisco? Could it be a great city which reigns over the kings of the earth… how is it possible to consolidate so much power in this day and age? Relatively simple if you control the media, flow of information, socio-political virtual landscape, create a one-world economy and all transactions are electronic. Perhaps, in the wake of a pandemic, physical marketplaces and cash transactions will be abolished? That’s the dream of Facebook and Amazon, both based on the US west coast.

Not only does it tick the box of a powerful world-ruling city on seven hills, the description of the multitudes of peoples, nations and tongues which the whore sits on top of could symbolise the World Wide Web.

There is a lot going on around San Francisco. UC Berkeley currently houses anti-matter on behalf of CERN, Silicon Valley is the home of all the tech giants including Microsoft, Google, Tesla and Facebook. Twitter is right in the middle of San Fran itself.

Wealthy, but Morally Bankrupt

The vision describes the city as excessively rich but also completely morally bankrupt and drinking in the abominations to God. The San Francisco Bay Area has the highest GDP per capita in the USA (according to the 2018 US Bureau of Economic Analysis). As for following God, the Pew Research Centre’s latest numbers are 35% with no religious affiliation, which is more than one-third of the population.

This is hardly surprising as San Francisco has both a reputation for sexual liberation and the highest percentage of LGBT identity in the US, something you won’t find applauded in the bible. Sexual liberty often has consequences, but in a recent UC San Francisco study, 95% of mothers who had opted to kill their babies before they could be born were happy with their decision 5 years afterwards.

As a state, California has performed more than half a million abortions in the last 10 years and back in 1982 an LA doctor was found with a shipping container of 16,000 preserved foetus’ in his yard. Los Angeles is also the home of the entertainment industry, continuously steeped in occult symbolism, and used to be the capitol of the porn industry before the internet explosion. According to the CDC (2018) Los Angeles has the highest rates of sexually transmitted infections in the US and San Diego and San Francisco rate at 10th and 11th in the country respectively.

Back in 2010, drug use in San Francisco was the highest in the country with 21.9% of the population over the age of 12 having use illicit drugs within a year. The California average at the time was 16.8% and the national average was 14.7% which are significantly lower. Since then, the problem has grown with overdose deaths accounting for more than three times the toll of the virus during the 2020 lockdown. But at least Nancy Pelosi’s hair looks nice.

San Francisco’s history is even more applicable to the character of Babylon in Revelation if you look at its past 100 years as well. In the 20th century it spawned the hippie movement and hosted the 1967 Summer of Love, which was supposed to be a protest against war, but was possibly an excuse to get high and have sex. It was an era of drug experimentation, particularly LSD which produced hallucinogenic “trips” to another realm. In 1963 Pat Maginnis established the Society for Humane Abortion to push for relaxation of the laws around killing the unborn.

Let’s not forget that just a short drive north of San Francisco is the site of Bohemian Grove at Monte Rio. This place has been frequented by political and business leaders for at least the last 100 years to take part in an offering ritual called The Cremation of Care to an owl god statue. It’s supposed to be a mock human-sacrifice, but since no one is allowed to divulge what happens at this place, there might be something more sinister going on. Regardless of whether the sacrifice is real or not, the bipartisan discussions about how to run the world are very real. This is a place where decisions are made and deals struck to the mutual benefit of both sides of the aisle.

Bohemian Grove Owl Statue 1925

Mark of the Beast

Bill Gates, the head of Microsoft, is currently forging ahead with a vaccine to cure the world and also track who has it through a technology developed at Rice University called quantum-dot tattoos which are microneedle pads applied to the skin to deliver the vaccine by absorption, but they leave a small temporary tattoo which can be read by a smartphone for about 5 years afterwards. Some are speculating that this is the perfect delivery method for a gene-altering mark of the beast, as referenced in Revelation 13:16-17 (NKJV);

He causes all, both small and great, rich and poor, free and slave, to receive a mark on their right hand or on their foreheads, and that no one may buy or sell except one who has the mark or the name of the beast, or the number of his name.

Tesla is one to watch on this subject in the wake of Elon Musk developing Neuralink; his transhumanist implant to directly stream the internet into your brain. Considering how quickly and easily we adopted the smartphone, as absurd as implant technology currently sounds, it may become the only way of doing things in the near-future.

Even now there are people opting for an RFID implant in their hand which replaces their wallet, phone and keys for outstanding convenience. Facial recognition software is also advanced enough to facilitate the Chinese social-credit system where citizens can be, and currently are, penalised for being religious or not overtly supportive enough of the government.

Why gene-altering? This refers to a statement Jesus made in Matthew 24:37 about the last days being just like the days of Noah. If you go back to Genesis 6:1-2 & 4-5 (NKJV) it outlines those times;

Now it came to pass, when men began to multiply on the face of the earth, and daughters were born to them, that the sons of God [angels] saw the daughters of men, that they were beautiful; and they took wives for themselves of all whom they chose…

There were giants [Nephilim] on the earth in those days, and also afterward, when the sons of God came into the daughters of men and they bore children to them. Those were the mighty men who were of old, men of renown. Then the Lord saw that the wickedness of man was great in the earth, and that every intent of the thoughts of his heart was only evil continually.

Continually evil. Sounds like most people on the internet.

This particular part of the bible is expanded upon in some of the Dead Sea Scrolls known as the Books of Enoch and particularly one called the Book of the Watchers. This is an area of study you need to be careful with, as it is not part of the scripture of God and has to be held at arm’s length when reading. However, as an apocryphal account, it can shed light onto what Genesis is talking about when it says that angels mated with human women and produced monstrous hybrids which precipitated the flood event to wipe them out.

A great resource for further study is the book by Dr Michael Heiser aptly named Demons where he delves into the text as a qualified language expert. In a nutshell, there was an angelic rebellion against God where some angels attempted to play god by creating their own unsanctioned children who turned into cannibalistic abominations of massive size and a complete lack of conscience or soul. They were utterly evil and irredeemable, plus they were annihilating the humans. When these hybrids die, they cannot ascend so they become the demons we’re familiar with, constantly in search of a physical host to inhabit.

What some researchers have proposed about the end-times, in view of this context, is that we may see humans hybridised with other species, either animal or “alien” which is one of the forms we encounter fallen angels in. If alien abduction accounts are anything to go by, these entities are very interested in our bodies and continually probe their subjects. There’s also reports of people being shown hybrid children during alien visions, and other reports where an attack can be repelled by the name of Jesus. This theory, obviously, remains to be seen, but a number of quiet public disclosures in recent years is paving the way for people to accept the ideas of aliens.

Occultists like Marjorie Cameron and L. Ron Hubbard certainly believed in aliens, and apparently so does the Vatican. Pope Francis famously vowed to baptise Martians if they show up and as a Jesuit, he is very familiar with the Vatican’s research into the cosmos from places like Mt Graham in Arizona, smack-bang between the coastal abominations of Hollywood and the area where nuclear testing was conducted and the Roswell incident occurred. The Vatican shares this facility with the Max Planck Institute, who originally named their part of the equipment “Lucifer” for no particular reason.

Roman Empire at its Greatest Extent (Image: Canva)

Is San Francisco the New Rome?

At the height of empire in 117AD, Rome encompassed all of the countries which touched the Mediterranean Sea plus the British Isles in the Atlantic Ocean. Controlling most of western Europe, north Africa, and most of the Middle East was not easy to do, but the mechanical precision and sheer force of Roman military might got the job done with shocking efficiency. However, there was a limit to how long it could be maintained and in 285AD Emperor Diocletian divided the empire into two provinces; east and west. He ruled the eastern half himself, then appointed Maximian as Augustus of the west.

In 324 Constantine conquered both halves of the empire in a series of military campaigns then opted to rule from the eastern city of Byzantium, which he re-named Constantinople. He credited his victory with a conversion to Christianity and put persecution to an end for the faithful. In terms of his own beliefs, he had nothing to gain by conversion except for supernatural assistance from God, and letters he wrote throughout his life indicate he took God seriously. He was possibly more devout than some of the church elders at the time who had introduced anti-Semitic Arianism into the doctrine, which Constantine hoped to clear up with the Council of Nicaea.

Eventually the empire became exclusively Christian under Emperor Theodosius in 380AD when he outlawed paganism. The two halves of the empire were left to his sons but they didn’t have what it took to fend off aggressors both within and without. Some of the issues had to do with a blending of church and state, with Rome progressively appointing itself as the head church and attempting to dictate to the eastern churches, who did not acknowledge a hierarchy.

In a weakened state, the western empire suffered multiple attacks from Germanic tribes, while the east was dealing with the Huns and Arab tribes. Both sides still believed themselves to be the true ruler of the Roman Empire and refused to acknowledge the other as such. As the western half broke away to barbarian tribes with no assistance from the east anymore, the Frankish King, Pepin, freed the city of Rome from the Lombards in 756AD. He then appointed parts of the state to the Pope, effectively creating the political power of the Vatican.

The split between east and west was official, not just politically, but also ecumenically, forming the Eastern Orthodox and the Roman Catholic churches. The eastern half of the old Roman Empire became the Byzantine Empire.

Pope Leo III used the Vatican’s political power in 800AD to crown Charlemagne, the son of Pepin, the first Holy Roman Emperor. This was the official start of a new church-state of Europe where the papacy governed the kings. Charlemagne began the wars of the Crusades in the east, but his successors ultimately failed to reclaim the Holy Land, or conquer the Byzantine empire.

The most famous dynasty of the Holy Roman Empire was the Habsburg family. They were Austrian, but ruled Spain as well during the 16th and 17th centuries, making Spain part of the empire during that time.

The Holy Roman Empire was officially demolished by Napoleon in 1806 when he declared himself Emperor and imprisoned Pope Pius VI, who later died in exile. The Vatican was eventually re-instated as a political nation in 1929 by Mussolini.

The only question left is whether San Francisco is a direct descendent of the Roman Empire so let’s have a look at where it fits in history.

Firstly, the United States did not start out as one country, but is a collection of states derived from three different colonial European countries; England, France and Spain. The west coast of the US was actually part of Mexico until 1848 and before that it belonged to Spain. The bay area was mapped by the Spanish around 1542, but not settled until 1776 when the Roman Catholic Church set up a Franciscan mission at the site.

As we can see, this puts it firmly under the Holy Roman Empire from its inception.

In Conclusion

It still amazes me, even now, after all the times I have been breath-taken at how ingenious and brilliant the disguises of the adversary are… even now, I’m still gob-smacked at how subtly the most innocuous city in the world could be wielding the most power. Look at San Fran; it’s sunny, colourful, happy, prosperous, compassionate, liberal, creative… why would anyone guess it could be the capitol city of evil?

San Francisco is an epicentre along the west coast of the US for all the mindsets diametrically opposed to God; Portland and Seattle to the north are hot-beds of extreme civil and political violence and rebellion, while Los Angeles to the south is the capitol of sexual depravity, murder of the innocents, self-idolatry and New Age practices. They call good evil and they call evil good.

Right in the middle, poised on top of the San Andreas fault line, is the city of seven hills controlling the spider’s web of human interaction and culture.

Bear in mind, this is just a theory, but I haven’t seen a better proposal yet which fits the strange times we live in. after all, how does someone quash the gospel in the age of information? Strategically, its brilliant. Christians need to start catching up.

What do you think? Personally, I think we’re running out of time.

Disorganised Attachment, Dissociative Disorder and New Age Practices

What Christians need to know about Religious Beliefs and Mental Health

One of the things I’ve encountered from New Age practitioners in terms of attacks on my choice of Christianity is the implication that I’m mentally unstable and people cannot trust anything I say.

Firstly, this the very reason why people never discuss their mental health with others and why they suffer in silence; people are mean. They’re also inclined to exploit any perceived weakness in another person for the purpose of undermining them or bringing them down.

People do it to public figures like Kanye West all the time as a way to dismiss anything he says. For the record, having anxiety doesn’t mean that a person can’t tell the difference between a banana and an apple, nor does it mean they cannot perceive reality or exercise sound judgement. It’s an erroneous thing people do to their fellow human beings and one of the reasons why the claim that people don’t have a problem with sin just doesn’t hold water.

People are cruel and they spread lies. That’s an unfortunate fact.

It’s why we need God to help us reform our ways and choose to be better than our fallen nature.

The other thing is, the assertion that Christianity has negative outcomes for mental health is demonstrably untrue. In fact, the opposite is consistently found in research literature and studies.

For example, a study by Kulis et al. in 2012 found that under-privileged teens were less likely to develop substance abuse problems if they were practicing Christians. Burshtein et al. in 2016 found that organised religion was a protective factor against committing suicide. Goeke-Morel et al. in 2013 discovered a direct correlation between devout Christian mothers and positive development indicators in their children. Lin et al. in 2015 studied Christian, Buddhist and Taoist communities in Taiwan and discovered that being Christian out-performed all other mainstream religions in terms of preventing dementia and Alzheimer’s in older age. And lastly, May, Cooper and Fincham in 2020 compared meditation to prayer in marriage counselling and found that prayer had far better outcomes in terms of repairing relationships than either meditation or no intervention. That same study also found that prayer improved cardiovascular health.

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Study after study after study confirm that Christianity outperforms all other religions and spiritual practices when it comes to multiple facets of wellbeing, from relationships and early childhood development to physiological health and mental health. These outcomes are also independent of other life circumstances such as poverty and conflict. In other words, people do better with God in their lives regardless of what the world throws at them.

People in the New Age can be mad about it, but that won’t alter reality.

But that’s kind of the crux of the matter, isn’t it?

One of the defining features of New Age practice is attempting to exercise control over circumstances and other people. If you think about manifestation, the primary goal is to exercise control over different situations, often situations which are beyond the human scope.

A defining feature of true Christianity is relinquishing control to God.

Thy will be done, not my will be done.

The reason why I emphasise true Christianity is because many New Age beliefs and practices have been adopted into the church over the decades since the 1960’s and have given rise to movements like Progressive Christianity, Word of Faith and the prosperity gospel, not to mention the heretical notion of “Christ consciousness” promoted by Oprah.

This brings us to an investigation of mental health outcomes for New Age practitioners.

When the accusation was levelled that Christians are mentally unstable in comparison to New Age spirituality, my first impulse was to defend Christianity, which in once sense is what we’re called to do, but in another sense constantly puts us on the back-foot in terms of clarifying that Jesus is the only way, truth and life.

But it occurred to me that I’ve never really heard of studies to back up a lot of the claims often made by people who peddle self-help books which claim New Age spiritual practices outperform Christianity. Most of the time what you’ll get in studies is a deliberate conflation of meditation with prayer, but as I have pointed out in a previous video, they’re very different beasts indeed when studied separately. Either that, or they’ll mis-quote the bible itself and adopt pseudoscience which puts a heavy spin on metaphysics and it’s just not present in the real research.

So I looked up the studies on mental health in the New Age and the results were unsurprising, but also confirmed some theories I had already developed from my own observations.

My theories which I had discussed in the past on YouTube were that people attracted to the New Age and paganism have had abusive childhoods and that has resulted in a certain level of openness to the “astral” which I have since started to refer to as the 2nd heaven where Satan and his angels reside. This openness is characterised by dissociation, which is a key element of all the practices promoted in the New Age such as meditation, astral travel, shamanic journeying, psychedelic drugs, and channelling.

Basically, when children are abused by a primary caregiver (parents, babysitters, grandparents etc) and they cannot physically escape, they escape mentally. This is called dissociation and it is a phenomenon where the person’s consciousness can separate from the physical body in order to protect itself from a horrific reality.

Not only that, but such an unsafe relationship with a primary caregiver also results in a disorganised attachment style.

If you’re not yet familiar with Bowlby, Ainsworth and Baumrind’s Attachment Theories, it’s a psychology term used to describe the bond between parents and small children. This relationship is the foundation for a person’s entire life and is a good predictor of how well they will do in school, in their careers and in their future relationships. If the attachment is unstable or insecure, that person is going to have to undergo years of therapy to try and rectify the situation, otherwise they will struggle to function normally, especially in relationships.

Two studies by Granqvist, Hagekull and Fransson in 2001 and 2009 looked at the correlation between New Age practices and attachment styles. Their theory was that a disorganised attachment style would be linked to dissociation as well as a tendency toward altered states of consciousness.

Granqvist, P, Fransson, M & Hagekull, B 2009

This particular segment stood out to me, personally, as a great way of understanding how confusing an abusive parent is to a small child.

Granqvist, P, Fransson, M & Hagekull, B 2009

I can remember my own mother laughing about how she had done this to my brother when he was very little: she was raging at him so much that he ran around in a circle, crying, and then ran to her for protection and comfort. She thought it was funny because it showed how “stupid” a three-year-old is.

What a monster.

When I say that I have been through this stuff myself, I mean it. I’m not trying to be mean or patronising, I’m trying to tell people how to find their way out.

One of the key differences noted between New Age practitioners and Christians or even non-religious people, was an inability to process or articulate trauma. People who practice New Age beliefs seem to be averse to the reality and finality of death, in particular. Granqvist and Hagekull (2001) refer to this as “emotional compensation” for a lack of parental security in early childhood.

This is fairly consistent with a lot of the advice I had been given when it came to practices like mediumship and divination. It could be that one of the reasons why the bible prohibits such things is for the mental well-being of people and to encourage them to let go. Again, a lot of it comes down to the urge to control major aspects of life and death, which are meant to be the domain of God.

Another interesting contrast between Christians and New Agers is that people with secure attachment styles are more likely to be religious if their parents were, whereas people with disorganised attachment were more likely to becomes spiritual if their parents were NOT. Security seems to foster an affinity for following the lead of their parents, while insecurity fosters a rebellious nature which runs contrary to their parents.

Their definition of the cognitive markers of New Age thought as an emphasis on intuition, subjectivity, relativism, immanence of the material world, and a smorgasbord of practices and philosophies which are impossible to pin down into any kind of structure.

Granqvist, P & Hagekull, B 2001

One of the key markers noted in the table of results for New Agers is that their beliefs are subject to sudden and intense changes. This is related to insecure attachment styles and mirrors a lot of relationship tendencies such as the “soul mate” notion where relationships will start very quickly and be characterised by drastic emotional highs and lows rather than stability and security.

They’re looking for stability, but they aren’t finding it because the New Age is designed to be ephemeral and to reject conventional notions of order, rationality and temperance.

The sand is constantly shifting beneath their feet, which is a familiar pattern inherited from unstable attachment to parents, but no one has been able to explain why their lives are constantly punctuated by states of distress.

This very much harks back to Matthew 7:24-27 (ESV) where Jesus says:

24 “Everyone then who hears these words of mine and does them will be like a wise man who built his house on the rock. 25 And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house, but it did not fall, because it had been founded on the rock. 26 And everyone who hears these words of mine and does not do them will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand. 27 And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell, and great was the fall of it.”

One of the big reasons why I advocate for a relationship with God through the real Jesus Christ is because people need some form of stability and structure in life, whether they’re willing to admit it or not. If they didn’t get it from their family, then it becomes vital to cultivate it through God.

Farias, Claridge and Lalljee conducted a study in 2005 which looked at personality and “loose cognitive styles” such as magical thinking, loose association, schizotypy, poor boundaries and emotional hypersensitivity. The results were not good.

There’s a cognitive tendency to associate random factors or events with one another to derive meaning beyond what is evident. Compile that with an openness to both experiences and suggestibility, thin mental and emotional boundaries, and insecure attachment styles… Farias, Claridge and Lalljee (2005) found that all of these factors result in tendencies towards personality disorders.

Farias, M, Claridge, G & Lalljee, M 2005

However, they found that people in the New Age are not generally in the realm of psychosis, but are somewhere between psychosis and normal when compared to Christians, agnostics and mental patients. Their grip on reality is tenuous, but still mostly present.

This is pretty good news in terms of getting treatment through therapy and through stable relationships if they ever have the inclination to turn to God and the church. Whether they will or not, might depend on the people that they associate with Christianity.

The main reason why New Age practitioners get so mad with Christians and with God is because of their attachment issues. If you think about the fact that God is our heavenly Father, and the church is supposed to represent our mother… having a toxic relationship with either of those earthly representatives will drive a wedge between people and Christianity.

They’re accustomed to feeling unsafe with their mother or father, and they’re accustomed to being forced to rely on themselves alone because they cannot trust their parents to look after them. Sometimes, they’ve also experienced abuse directly from the church.

Granqvist, P & Hagekull, B 2001

Christians need to take this stuff seriously because it is the main issue in attempting to save people. An unsafe church which tolerates abuse is purely doing Satan’s work, not God’s. In a fallen world it is up to the church to show people who are lost what love is supposed to look like.

Hopefully this will give people some food for thought regarding their wellbeing and provide some hope for a different future than the one they currently have.


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Is Christianity Misogynistic?

What the Bible really says about Gender Roles

The first thing I have to do, and I can’t believe these are the times we live in, but there you go… is to establish that there are irrefutable differences between the genders. This should be self-evident, and almost unequivocal considering how far we have come in terms of science and biology research, but in the same way that we now have flat-earth rearing its idiotic head, we now have gender-deniers as well.

I want to state from the outset that this no indictment on the trans community, it is actually the opposite, since the validity of being trans also hinges on the concept of gender being an actual thing and not something you can simply announce in your twitter bio. How is someone supposed to transition from one gender to another, if gender doesn’t exist?

Let’s start off with the basic building blocks of biology; genetics. There are normally two main types of people on the planet; XX chromosome people and XY chromosome people, also known as female and male.

Now, there are situations where the chromosomes are present, but during foetal development something blocks the hormones necessary to develop along those lines, such as androgen insensitivity, or congenital adrenal hyperplasia, which result in being born intersex.

There’s also a condition known as monosomy, or Turner’s Syndrome, which is when a female loses a part of one of her sex chromosomes during embryonic development leading to life-threatening and disabling conditions in multiple areas of the body. They can be born without ovaries to supply necessary hormones for development, but synthetic hormonal replacement can help to prompt secondary sex characteristics during the teen years. This condition is about as close as we get to the concept of “gender neutral” in terms of chromosomes, but even then it is specifically a female condition, so that argument falls apart instantly.

You can’t be gender neutral. You have chromosomes. Sorry.

By all means, you can shirk the idea of gender stereotypes. That’s different. And of course, people can choose to fight biology if they are really determined to do so, but it’ll never provide the full experience of truly becoming the opposite gender. For example, a trans woman won’t have periods.

The gender deniers have tried to argue that gender differences are arbitrary and merely a social construct designed to marginalise women (who, theoretically, according to them, have no significant differences to men). However, this does not bear out in medicine. A research piece by UC Berkley found that if drug trials were only conducted using male participants, female patients would be at risk of overdoses from prescription medications.

As you can see, biology between the genders does exist and does matter. It has real-world consequences when we don’t factor that in.

The Christian stance on the matter of gender is that God doesn’t foster confusion. Confusion comes from living in a fallen world where things like hormones run into interference from a myriad of factors which were never part of the original design. God does not want us to be at odds with either our own bodies, or with Him, which is why He has sought to draw us back into His fold through the grace of Jesus. However, we will still have to contend with the world, our own weakness of the flesh, and the influence of the adversary (Satan) who thrives on stirring conflict and strife.

Now that we’ve established the truth of biological gender, we can turn to the real question at hand: gender ROLES.

Gender roles have been hotly debated… since the beginning of time. Around the globe and throughout history different cultures have dealt with the conundrum of gender roles in a variety of ways. The influence of biology is significant in certain respects and irrelevant in others, so it can depend on whether a particular society is collectivist vs individualist; agricultural or hunter-gatherer; what level of technology they have; socio-economic power & education levels.

Anthropology, psychology and sociology have all attempted to figure out if there are consistent gender roles across different cultures, but no academic department has done such a thorough and honest job of it, as… Marketing.

Let’s be real, when it comes to making money off our human weaknesses and tendencies, no marketer worth their salt is going to risk a profit margin just to be woke.

Unless you’re Procter & Gamble. In which case; get woke, go broke.

A cross-cultural study on gender markers examined 3 countries from a masculinity ranking system of 53 countries which rated Mexico as the 6th most masculine country , the USA as 15th, and Norway as the second most feminine on the scale.

They used large sample groups of similar ages and education for the survey study in order to reduce covariant results in the cohorts.

They measured 20 survey questions of gender tendencies: 10 masculine and 10 feminine. The results found that 16 out of 20 were consistent with their corresponding genders across vastly differing cultures. In other words, females tended towards feminine traits and males tended toward masculine traits regardless of their culture.

So we know that men are women have substantial biological differences physiologically, and also psychologically.

The next question is, how does Christianity define femininity and gender roles?

Proverbs 31:10-31 (NRSV) is a chapter in the bible dedicated to describing how women should be at their most ideal;

A capable wife who can find? She is far more precious than jewels.

The heart of her husband trusts in her, and he will have no lack of gain. She does him good, and not harm, all the days of her life.

She seeks wool and flax, and works with willing hands. She is like the ships of the merchant, she brings her food from far away. She rises while it is still night and provides food for her household and tasks for her servant-girls.

She considers a field and buys it; with the fruits of her hands she plants a vineyard.

She girds herself with strength, and makes her arms strong.

She perceives that her merchandise is profitable. Her lamp does not go out at night. She puts her hand to the distaff, and her hands hold the spindle.

She opens her hand to the poor, and reaches out her hands to the needy.

She is not afraid for her household when it snows, for all her household are clothed in crimson. She makes herself coverings; her clothing is fine linen and purple.

Her husband is known in the city gates, taking his seat among the elders of the land.

She makes linen garments and sells them; she supplies the merchant with sashes. Strength and dignity are her clothing, and she laughs at the time to come.

She opens her mouth with wisdom, and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue. She looks well to the ways of her household, and does not eat the bread of idleness.

Her children rise up and call her happy; her husband too, and he praises her: ‘Many women have done excellently, but you surpass them all.’

Charm is deceitful, and beauty is in vain, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. Give her a share in the fruit of her hands, and let her works praise her in the city gates.

This description of a good and Godly woman is interesting because it in no way makes her the property or subservient to her husband, but rather implies that women are free to manage their own money, buy property, run a business, employ staff etc. She is characterised by strength, wisdom, charity, future planning skills, sound judgement, hard work, and kindness.

Her partner and kids treat her with respect and gratitude, and she is highly regarded by the community. In turn, her good character reflects positively on her family and elevates her husband’s esteem from others as well.

This view of women is hardly degrading or outdated.

One of the arguments against Christianity made by feminism is that it replaced the highly evolved and woke pagan societies which allowed women to be as promiscuous as they liked, with an oppressive patriarchy and modesty culture.

This argument relies on an assumption that being promiscuous is liberating or desirable for women, and that the presence of indiscriminate sex somehow goes hand-in-hand with emancipated females. However, this assumption is incorrect.

One of the biggest adversaries to the Hebrews in the bible was a nation known as the Canaanites, but which modern archaeology know as the Phoenicians. Their culture worshipped the gods Baal, Molech and Astarte. Modern day witchcraft also worships Astarte as a patron goddess, but they would probably be horrified at what the historic practice of dedication to this demon actually is.

At the temples to Astarte they had what was known as “sacred prostitution” where literally every teen girl in the land would be forced to contribute her virginity to a random stranger who paid the temple for the privilege of deflowering a young girl. On top of that, the temple would host regular drug-fuelled orgies which could become so berserk that the men would castrate themselves in dedication to the goddess.

Many unwanted pregnancies to unknown fathers would result from the orgies, but rather than this being a problem, it simply became fodder for the other gods, namely Molech or Baal.

Once the child had been born, especially if it was a male child, it would be sacrificed on an altar to Molech or Baal at the Tophet by having its throat slit and then cremated in the furnace of the belly of the idol.

There is a mass grave site in Carthage with approximately 20,000 urns of the bones of babies and toddlers, mostly male children in full health at the time of their deaths.

To me, these people were less monstrous than we are today. At least they gave their murdered children a funeral. These days we just use them as science experiments or throw them in the trash. Twenty-thousand children is nothing compared to the numbers we rack up in the west on an annual basis, tallying between half a million and a million babies aborted per year just in the US alone.

People like Meghan Markle try to garner sympathy for a miscarriage, but at the same time happily advocate for a “woman’s rights” to terminate a “clump of cells”. Is it a clump of cells, Meghan, or is it a baby? Because it can’t be both of those things whenever you feel like it. Either she’s remarkably stupid, or she’s grotesquely hypocritical, but if I had to guess I would go with the latter option and unfortunately this is a common double-standard in feminism.

The famed occultist Aleister Crowley wrote about abortion as a form of child sacrifice, specifically male babies in full health. As a society, are we unwittingly partaking in child sacrifice dedicated to demons?

Strangely enough, this possibility isn’t out of the question considering that Molech is still being worshipped by political leaders at a site in California known as Bohemian Grove. Whether they use actual children during the annual ceremony of the “Cremation of Care” is unknown and possibly unknowable, but not entirely out of the question when we take into account what people like Epstein have partaken in.

To me, the idea that paganism or the third-wave feminist movement do favours for women whatsoever is a complete farce. It seems more like a social system designed to make women more easily sexually exploited and then leave them in situations where they have to make life and death choices about their own future as well as that of unintended children.

When the bible talks about sex outside of marriage being against God’s plan for humanity’s wellbeing, we need to bear in mind that God is not interested in you being able to get off. He’s preoccupied with the misery and pain which will be endured by the children which result from unstable relationships as well as the emotional and psychological fallout for the couple involved.

And as much as feminists want to rail against that reality, it keeps being backed up by psychology research. Children raised in a household which directly involves both biological parents vastly outperform all of their peers in every developmental facet. Not only that, but married couples outlive their single and divorced counterparts by up to a decade.

That’s not religion, that’s science.

Of course, there are situations where people end up in destructive and abusive relationships, but that’s also an aberration which was not part of the plan and is more of a symptom of a society based on cynical and exploitative ideas about relationships.

As Jesus himself said in Matthew 19:4-9 (NRSV) that marriage was designed to be a permanent joining of two people into one flesh, but ‘…it was because you were so hard-hearted that Moses allowed you to divorce your wives, but at the beginning is was not so.’ This highlights the fact that relationships break down due to people hardening their hearts against one another and having no true love for each other. The fallout is that people abuse and are abused within relationships when they should be protected, cared for, respected and loved.

When we start to treat sex as a “right” instead of a responsibility, and relationships as a transaction instead of a mutually necessary form of family, not only do we encounter twisted ideas like the incels, simps and e-thots, but we also start sacrificing the wellbeing of future generations on the altar of our own egos.

Women in Leadership

The final criticism of Christianity is that it doesn’t elevate women to positions of leadership and instead makes them subservient to men. There are two verses usually referred to when making this argument which are:

I do not permit a woman to teach or exercise authority over a man (1 Timothy 2:12)

Wives submit to your husbands as to the Lord (Ephesians 5:22)

Both of these statements were written by St Paul the Apostle in his letters to the first century churches and need to be read in context both historically and linguistically, as well as the broader context of the passages they’re found in.

First of all, women in leadership is not unheard of throughout the bible, but it is rare. That’s not because women are viewed as “incapable” but because they were not generally put in harm’s way or expected to endure targeting and suffering.

Examples of female leadership include Deborah, who was one of the early Judges, which was essentially a type of elected leader similar to a combination of priest and president. There was also Esther who convinced a king to spare the lives of her people, Judith who cut the head off a general who had laid siege to her city, Jael who drove a tent-peg through the skull of another general, Miriam who saved the life of her baby brother Moses, the Queen of Sheba who visited Solomon to debate him in philosophy as well as negotiate trade deals, and Mary Magdalene who (along with a number of other women) worked to keep Jesus and disciples housed and fed during their travels and was the first witness to His risen form at the tomb. The rumor that Mary Magdalene was a prostitute is not biblical, that comes from conflating two different characters as the same person when the gospel of Luke talks about the woman with expensive oil anointing Jesus’ feet. That woman is never named, nor is Mary ever referred to as a prostitute.

When it was necessary, women stepped into leadership, but they did it in specifically feminine ways which worked in those circumstances when masculine tactics would not. Generally speaking, though, women were not exposed to unnecessary risk or put in harm’s way such as on the battlefield. Instead, they were to be protected as much as possible and deployed as a last resort.

In this context we can understand why Paul made stipulations for the protection of women, not in order to subjugate them, but to shield them from harm.

First, the passage about not permitting women to teach can be understood as a means of not making them targets for slaughter by the Romans. Anyone in leadership would be particularly at risk. But also it goes back to the innate gender differences discussed earlier.

In a study by Zheng et al. (2017) they conducted an experiment to see if there was a gender difference in how easily people acquiesce to unjust situations. Basically, do men and women cave under social pressure? It was found that, yes; women cave to social pressure far more easily than men do. This goes back to the tendencies to nurture and people-please which women are prone to do noted in the earlier study on masculinity.

Having an understanding of human nature and the immense pressure from outside forces to take down the Christian church, Paul did not advise for teaching positions to be held by women simply because they have a harder time standing up to bullying.

This doesn’t make women “inferior” it simply means that we naturally care for other’s wellbeing and this can be weaponised against us. On the flip-side, it’s supposed to make us good mothers who are able to put the needs of our children before our own pursuits.

Where this tends to break down is when the men fail to behave as protectors and instead abuse their positions of power, which is what the statement in Ephesians attempts to address.

The book of Ephesians is predominantly about how to handle spiritual warfare, so it uses military language and structures on this topic. All the members of the church as instructed to follow the teachings of Christ and to seek support from one another. Women are advised to “Hupotasso” to their husbands, which is the original Greek word used in the scripture and has a cultural meaning lost in translation to the English. This is a military term and means something along the lines of “fall-in” behind your leader so that you can follow their tactical orders and back them up in battle.

In return for this trust that women place in their husbands to be a good leader, the men are instructed to love and protect their wives even to the point of sacrificing their own lives to do so. This harks back to the teachings of Jesus when he said that divorce is only necessary when people’s heart are hardened against one another, not when they have genuine love.

There is an onus of expectation on both genders to deal fairly and caringly with one another in ways which protect and support, not an excuse to abuse power or to undermine each other.

When the bible is read as a whole and in context, as well as when we apply thorough understanding of human psychology, we begin to see how it is meant to be applied in our lives, rather than seeing it as an affront to our “rights” or a big mean dictatorship.

Unfortunately, humans like to start wars with one-another as we have seen in the gender war between men and women. That’s not Christianity, that’s humans.

Turn the Other Cheek?

What the Bible says about Forgiveness, Judging Others and Setting Boundaries.

When it comes to being Christian there is usually an emphasis on being gentle as doves, forgiving your neighbour, turning the other cheek… etc.

However, what I’ve found a lot of the time is that this ethos gets exploited by unscrupulous and abusive people who have no intentions of repenting, changing or making amends. Dr Ramini is a great YouTube psychologist I would recommend and she outlined in a video which I’ll link underneath how all the characteristics of being Christian are especially targeted by narcissists.

Her list of characteristics is:

  1. Overly empathic
  2. Rescuers
  3. Positive people
  4. Forgivers
  5. Children of narcissists

I know for myself I fit into all 5 categories and I know how those traits have been exploited in the past, especially by my narcissistic mother. Talking about empathy was a big part of my previous channel and website, but mostly I warned against having your empathy triggered and utilised by the wrong people. Unfortunately, that is sound psychological advice to prevent someone being abused, but a person’s good nature can make them susceptible to guilt trips and coercion if they don’t know where the lines are and how to enforce them.

So this begs the question: does God permit boundaries for us, and if so, how do we navigate that? When should we judge and when should we forgive? What does forgiveness mean and what does it mean to love your neighbour as yourself?

Jesus said that the first commandment is to love the Lord your God with all your heart, and all your strength and all your might, and the second is like it; you must love your neighbour as you love yourself (Luke 10:27; Matthew 22:37 & John 13:34).

The example he gives of neighbourly love is the parable of the good Samaritan who saves a man’s life. The biblical definition of love is the protection, care and respect of human life. It’s almost a neutral state of simply doing the right thing, regardless of who the person is, whether you’ll get anything out of the arrangement, or if you have to go out of your way to do it.

In many ways it can be described by ethos; no man left behind. It’s simply the right thing to do, and to do otherwise would be callous.

Now, was the man that the Samaritan assisted trying to kill him or steal from him? No.

However, the bible does say in Luke 6:27-31 (NRSV) you should love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you and pray for those who abuse you. If anyone strikes you on the cheek, offer the other also; and from anyone who takes away your coat do not withhold even your shirt… Do to others as you would have them do to you.

Jesus goes on to say that even sinners will love people who love them back and do good to people who do good to them. If people are behaving nicely towards you, then it’s pretty easy to simply do the same in return, but it gets really difficult to do when people are nasty towards you. In this way, Christians are supposed to set themselves apart from the rest of the world and not lower themselves to the terrible standards of others around them.

1 Peter 3:13-16 (NRSV) says; Now who will harm you if you are eager to do what is good? But even if you do suffer for doing what is right you are blessed. Do not fear what they fear, and do not be intimidated, but in your hearts sanctify Christ as Lord. Always be ready to make your defence to anyone who demands from you an account of the hope that is in you; yet do it with gentleness and reverence.

Keep your conscience clear, so that, when you are maligned, those who abuse you for your good conduct in Christ may be put to shame.

I know from past experience that people absolutely hate it when you don’t degrade yourself by stooping to their level. It aggravates them to no end if you maintain a standard which is above theirs and you’ll usually be attacked for it. They’ll call you arrogant, tell you that you have a superiority complex, that you’re fake, or actually being mean to them.

What they’re really saying is; your behaviour is making my own behaviour look dreadful in comparison and I can’t stand it.

It’s one of the big reasons why people hate God in the first place, because He sets such a high standard which shows theirs up as being corrupted and the shame that it evokes in them is something they don’t want to deal with. They would rather reject God and be lost for eternity than admit their failings and try to do better.

This is why Jesus says that if the world hates you, it’s because it hated Him first and the world only loves people who are of the world, not people who are of God (John 15:18-19).

Romans 12:14-21 outlines advice on how to act with different people in different situations, but specifically is advises; Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

But the other reason why they want to provoke you into a reaction is because it provides some twisted justification for their behaviour. They’re supposed to abuse you, because you deserve it… just look at how you reacted when they abused you! Clear case of someone who deserved it.

The thing is, most people spend a lot of their lives running from God and hiding from the light, and on an instinctive level they know that true believers who are seeking after God will shine a light on their shadows and expose them. Even people in church do it. I’ve known people who call themselves Christian but do all sorts of unscrupulous things and are trying to hide it or refuse to repent, refuse to acknowledge that they’ve made an error. What they probably don’t realise is that they aren’t saved unless they’ve repented.

When I left witchcraft a lot of people said they hated church because of those types of Christians who had abused them in the past and they claimed that I couldn’t possibly understand. The thing is, I know that hypocrisy well because I was raised by an abusive narcissistic mother who believes that she’s a perfect Christian even when she emotionally and psychologically tortured me and my brother for hours on end when I was 6, 7, 8, 9, 10 years old… Even when she kidnapped me when I was 13, took me interstate and tried to cut me off from knowing my dad. Even when she called me a little a$$hole as a toddler, or a b!tc#, or told me she doesn’t like me, or called me an animal, or slapped me across the face, or grabbed me by the hair, or burned my clothes, or threw a metal pole at me, or left me abandoned in public places for hours on end, or didn’t even notice that I stopped talking for a year in high school…

I know exactly what those people are like, and that’s the whole reason Christians are not supposed to be like that; because it alienates other people from God. They see Him represented by the worst hypocrites imaginable and they cannot get behind such a thing.

They think that God indulges it.

That is not true.

The bible teaches that love is boundaries and care, not abuse or indulgence.

Of course God doesn’t just allow people to be abused. That’s almost entirely what the bible is about. As Christians, you’re not allowed to extract revenge or behave in ways which are similar to the people of the world. You’re supposed to demonstrate what love actually looks like in a world which has a very cynical and exploitative version of love as its definition. You have to act as God’s representatives on earth.

However, God also declares is that “vengeance is mine!” (Deuteronomy 32:35 & Romans 12:19) which means that we are not the ones to seek recompense, but instead we are told to pray for those who abuse us. The purpose of this is so that they might undergo their conviction during their lifetime and thus be saved.

Everyone has to reckon with God eventually, it’s just a matter of time. The aim of Jesus’ sacrifice was to draw as many souls back to God as possible before they die and become judged. However, they are going to be judged eventually as seen in Matthew 3:12 (NRSV) when John the Baptist says “His winnowing-fork is in his hand, and he will clear his threshing-floor and will gather his wheat into the granary; but the chaff he will burn with unquenchable fire.” And again in Matthew 25:31-46 (NRSV) where Jesus describes sorting the sheep from the goats, saying; “you that are accursed, depart from me into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels; for I was hungry and you gave me no food, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink…”

By the way, this stuff doesn’t necessarily apply to people who have never heard of Jesus, which is something non-believers like to try and use as an excuse for hating God. Jesus says in John 15:22 that if he had not spoken in front of people, they would still be without sin, but by seeing and then rejecting God, they are sealing their own fates. This means that people who have never heard of Jesus and cannot be expected to know of their salvation can still be accepted into heaven when they die depending on their life’s works.

God, above all else, is all about justice. He is holy, He is righteous, He is merciful, and He is just. Because of that, there have to be consequences. He will not permit injustices to go unanswered, so if people are avoiding repentance and the conviction of the Holy Spirit in order to be forgiven, that doesn’t mean it won’t catch up with them. Proverbs 11:21 (NRSV) says; Be assured the wicked will not go unpunished, but those who are righteous will escape.

But because God is all about justice and salvation, we can’t just leave people to rot in sin either. We’re actually obliged to correct their behaviour and expose darkness whenever we see it. Ephesians 5:11-13 (NRSV) says; Take no part in the unfruitful works of darkness, but instead expose them. For it is shameful even to mention what such people do secretly; but everything exposed by the light becomes visible…

How should we judge others? Are we allowed to judge others?

Do not judge lest you be judged (Luke 6:37) is often used by people who wish to avoid being accountable for their actions. Yes, Jesus did say this, but He goes on, in Luke 6:41-42 (NRSV), to explain His meaning with;

Why do you see the speck in your neighbour’s eye but do not notice the log in your own eye? Or how can you say to your neighbour, “friend, let me take out the speck in your eye” when you yourself do not see the log in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your neighbour’s eye.

So His advice is not to ever judge, but to engage in self-reflection and self-awareness before you do. How can we see clearly enough to help another, or to understand the right judgement when we refuse to look at our own foibles?

In Romans 2:1-11 (NRSV) it outlines how God judges us when we point the finger at others;

Therefore you have no excuse, whoever you are, when you judge others; for in passing judgement on another you condemn yourself, because you, the judge, are doing the very same things…

Do you imagine, whoever you are, that when you judge those who do such things and yet do them yourself, you will escape the judgement of God?

…Do you not realise that God’s kindness is meant to lead you to repentance?

But by your hard and impertinent heart you are storing up wrath for yourself on the day of wrath when God’s righteous judgement will be revealed. For he will repay according to each one’s deeds…

…For God shows no partiality.

This especially applies to when we judge others and refuse to repent and rectify our own behaviour. So that particular point about self-reflection is hugely important.

Forgiveness is a major aspect of Christianity, but how do we apply it? In Matthew 18:21-22 (NRSV) it says; Then Peter came and said to him, ‘Lord, if another member of the church sins against me, how often should I forgive? As many as seven times?’ Jesus said to him, ‘Not seven times, but, I tell you, seventy-seven times.’ In Matthew 6:14-15 (NRSV) it says; For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you; but if you do not forgive others, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.

The ability to forgive means that we can sometimes recover a friendship, as it says in Proverbs 17:9 (NRSV) One who forgives an affront fosters a friendship, but one who dwells on disputes will alienate a friend. We have to forgive others in our hearts and let go of anger and resentment so that we can receive forgiveness in return. We can’t be hypocritical. When someone is truly sorry for something they have done and they seek to repair the damage to the relationship, St. Paul has words of advice for how to receive them in 2 Corinthians 2:7-8 (NRSV); so now instead you should forgive and console him, so that he may not be overwhelmed with excessive sorrow. So I urge you to reaffirm your love for him. Galatians 6:1 advises; My friends, if anyone is detected in a transgression, you who have received the Spirit should restore such a one in a spirit of gentleness. Take care that you yourselves are not tempted.

Does forgiveness mean that we allow others back into our lives, or permit them to continue in the same behaviour if they haven’t said sorry, or if they keep doing the same things every time?

In Luke 17:3-4 Jesus says; Be on your guard! If another disciple sins, you must rebuke the offender, and if there is repentance, you must forgive. And if the same person sins against you seven times a day, and turns back to you seven times and says, “I repent”, you must forgive.

One of the key features of that statement is repentance. People need to actually acknowledge their mistakes and seek to rectify them in order to repair the relationship, otherwise they’re not seeking a reciprocal relationship with you.

What about people who refuse to change? How do you create and maintain clear boundaries with people who persist in abusive behaviour?

The bible has advice about how to address behaviour with another person in Matthew 18:15-17 (NRSV) which says; ‘If another member of the church sins against you, go and point out the fault when the two of you are alone. If the member listens to you, you have regained that one.

But if you are not listened to, take one or two others along with you, so that every word may be confirmed by the evidence of two or three witnesses. If the member refuses to listen to them, tell it to the church; and if the offender refuses to listen even to the church, let such a one be to you as a gentile or a tax-collector.’

So Jesus is advising us to try talking in private so that the other person has an opportunity to fix a mistake without the embarrassment of it being public knowledge, but if they won’t accept any wrongdoing, you need to involve other witnesses to hold them accountable and then if that’s not enough you must stop associating with them. They’ve proved they’re untrustworthy at that point.

It’s important to separate yourself from people who are beyond help, or who are refusing to reform their own lives. The most important reason for this is because they will interrupt your walk with God by attempting to suck all of your time and attention away from Him and onto them. Usually with people like that they’re extraordinarily needy and it’s more than just being lazy or self-indulgent, its actually designed to put themselves into the position of a god in other people’s lives.

If you’ve ever dealt with narcissists you’ll probably know that they demand absolute fealty, attention, worship, prime position in your life, immediate compliance to all of their commands etc. You will not be allowed to put God first in your life if you’re dealing with a toxic person, even if they don’t have full-blown narcissistic personality disorder. Even just dealing with shades of it can be detrimental to your journey towards God.

In 1 Corinthians 15:33 (NRSV) it says; Do not be deceived: ‘bad company ruins good morals.’

Titus 3:10-11 (NRSV) says; After a first and second admonition, have nothing more to do with anyone who causes divisions, since you know that such a person is perverted and sinful, being self-condemned.

1 Timothy 5:20(NRSV) says; As for those who persist in sin, rebuke them in the presence of all, so that the rest also may stand in fear. And 2 Thessalonians 3:14-15 says; Take note of those who do not obey what we say in this letter; have nothing to do with them, so that they may be ashamed. Do not regard them as enemies, but warn them as believers.

Unfortunately, sometimes people are just unable to undertake self-reflection, either by a lack of reasoning ability, or by believing that they don’t need other’s perspective, as in Proverbs 17:10 (NRSV) which says; A rebuke strikes deeper into a discerning person than a hundred blows into a fool.

The bible actually teaches that you need to cut off people who refuse to reform their ways, and that their behaviour should to be addressed. Permitting bad behaviour gives the wrong impression to others and may cause them to stumble, which is something the bible also condemns.

In Matthew 18:7 (NRSV) Jesus says; Woe to the world because of stumbling-blocks! Occasions for stumbling are bound to come, but woe to the one by whom the stumbling-block comes!

If we go back to the first commandment from Jesus to love God first and foremost with all your heart, we start to see where our priorities should lie. God comes first, then we must show compassion for others so that they have a glimpse of God’s love, but anyone who interferes with that journey is not to be given access in the same way that the wicked will not inherit the kingdom of heaven, because God has boundaries and so must we.

As it says in Galatians 1:10 (NRSV); Am I now seeking human approval, or God’s approval? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still pleasing people, I would not be a servant of Christ.

Are You God?

Debunking “Christ Consciousness”

One of the bible verses frequently utilised as proof of the concept of “Christ Consciousness” is found in John 10:34 (NKJV):

Jesus answered them, “Is it not written in your law, ‘I said, “You are gods”’?

When taken out of context and presented as a solitary statement it very much sounds like an affirmation from Jesus where we can behave like egotistical narcissists and insert ourselves into the narrative, telling our wildly deluded minds that we are gods! This is what “Christ consciousness” teachers are trying to tell everyone.

However, when we read the whole as part of a longer conversation, we begin to see that it is not an affirmation at all. It’s an intellectual argument against being murdered as well as a subtle way of throwing shade and condemnation.

Then the Jews took up stones again to stone Him. Jesus answered them, “Many good works I have shown you from My Father. For which of those works do you stone Me?”

The Jews answered Him, saying, “For a good work we do not stone You, but for blasphemy, and because You, being a Man, make Yourself God.”

Jesus answered them, “Is it not written in your law, ‘I said, “You are gods”’?

“If He called them gods, to whom the word of God came (and the scripture cannot be broken), do you say of Him whom the Father sanctified and sent into the world, ‘You are blaspheming,’ because I said, ‘I am the Son of God’?

“If I do not do the works of My Father, do not believe Me; but if I do, though you do not believe Me, believe the works, that you may know and believe that the Father is in Me, and I in Him.”

Therefore they sought again to seize Him, but He escaped out of their hand.

In this conversation between Jesus and the Jewish leaders, Jesus quotes Psalm 82, which is very much in-keeping with theological debate. The Jews would have known the reference and understood both the justification for Jesus’ innocence as well as the condemnation from a man who was claiming to be their authority in the form of the incarnated Lord God, Son of the Father, which is probably why they still tried to kill Him…

Psalm 82

God stands in the congregation of the mighty;

He judges among the gods.

How long will you judge unjustly,

And show partiality to the wicked?

Defend the poor and fatherless;

Do justice to the afflicted and needy.

Deliver the poor and needy;

Free them from the hand of the wicked.

They do not know, nor do they understand;

They walk about in darkness;

All the foundations of the earth are unstable.

I said; “You are gods,

And all of you are children of the Most High.

But you shall die like men,

And fall like one of the princes.”

Arise, O God, judge the earth;

For You shall inherit all nations.

The original Hebrew word for “gods” was Elohim which can be used interchangeably to mean either “god” or “judge” so it can reference a heavenly figure or an earthly one, but essentially it represents a divine authority who is able to pass judgement over another person’s life. To be a judge was a sacred duty bestowed by God, not just a job description, and it had to be performed in strict line with the Word of God or else there would be eternal consequences similar to how God dealt with the fallen angels, who are sometimes described as princes in the Old Testament.

Taking a passage of the bible out of context is like walking up to a group of people who are mid-conversation and loudly interjecting; “I know, right? You just can’t trust rabbits.”

They’re likely to stare at you as though you have three heads and all three of them are stupid.

This assessment would be correct, and yet this is exactly how New Age teachers like Deepak Chopra and Progressive Christian teachers like Richard Rohr use the bible. This is such a paper-thin use of the text that it’s laughable to anyone who really knows the doctrine, but that’s kind of the point: they need you to just take their word for it and remain ignorant, rather than investigate the source material for yourself.

If you’re in doubt about the matter of whether we have our own divinity after this analysis of the text, it is worth keeping in mind that the Bible addresses the subject in multiple areas…

1 Corinthians 1:25 (NKJV) Because the foolishness of God is wiser than men, and the weakness of God is stronger than men.

1 Corinthians 15:50 (NKJV) Now this I say, brethren, that flesh and blood cannot inherit the kingdom of God; nor does corruption inherit in-corruption.

Galatians 2:6 (NKJV) But from those who seemed to be something – whatever they were, it makes no difference to me; God shows personal favouritism to no man – for those who seemed to be something added nothing to me.

Galatians 4:8-9 (NKJV) But then, indeed, when you did not know God, you served those which by nature are not gods. But now after you have known God, or rather are known by God, how is it that you turn again to the weak and beggarly elements, to which you desire again to be in bondage?

Isaiah 31:3 (NKJV) Now the Egyptians are men, and not God; And their horses are flesh, and not spirit. When the Lord stretches out His hand, both he who helps will fall, and he who is helped will fall down; They all will perish together.

So in short, human beings are finite flesh-and-blood and we cannot hope to compare ourselves to the epic and perfect standards of the true God. We’re puny, foolish creatures who’s deeds are corrupted and lame.

If a person’s measuring stick for wisdom, fallibility, great deeds and longevity is only human-sized, of course it’ll be woefully inadequate. As God points out to Job in chapter 38:31-33

Can you bind the cluster of the Pleiades,

Or loose the belt of Orion?

Can you bring out Mazzaroth in its season?

Or can you guide the Great Bear with its cubs?

Do you know the ordinances of the heavens?

Can you set their dominion over the earth?

Puts things in perspective a bit.

On a final note; it’s not that spiritual advisers who write about consciousness aren’t talking about some real phenomena in the process, but their theology is fundamentally flawed and the most dangerous thing is to mix a lie into the truth.

Take Richard Rohr for example: he’s an ordained Franciscan spreading Gnosticism when he’s been taught better. The title of one of his books is called “Falling Upwards” and for anyone who knows about the occult, it’s easy to recognise OBE or astral travel being referenced.

I can only hope that people figure out the parlour tricks before it’s too late.

How Did You Lose Your Faith?

The hidden Ponzi scheme of Progressive Christianity.

What is progressive Christianity?

Imagine that Christianity is like either a church or a house. As a community, people seek spiritual shelter within the church, and in their personal lives they seek it within their own home, so we will use a church as an example, but it can also flow over into the home.

A church is a structure which is built on a foundation, and in the traditional church it was built on the foundation of the unshakable bedrock of the Word of God as revealed in the bible. The Apostles and Saints then provided the framework and structure of the building and the congregation of devout Christians fill the church with its furnishings and the Holy Spirit. We know from Matthew 18:20 (NKJV) Jesus says “For where two or three are gathered together in My name, I am there in the midst of them.”

What the progressive church seeks to do is to lift the church up off its foundations, cart it away to a new site which is a pile of shifting sand, plonk it down and then evict the Holy Spirit and the furnishings of worshiping God and replace them with idols and demons. Those demons them mimic the “gifts” of the Holy Spirit and successfully deceive the congregation through highly emotive experiential “truths” and false revelations. The uncanny resemblance of kundalini manifestations in some hyper-charismatic churches is not a coincidence.

The reasoning behind the choice to shift the foundation of the church is so that Christianity can fit in with a world lost in darkness. That’s exactly what the bible advises AGAINST doing. Romans 12:2 (NKJV) says “And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.”

In other words, you need to know the true word of God from the bible and engage your mental faculties in order to seek an understanding of it, and not be deceived by false hope or empty promises.

The bible already has instruction for how to set a foundation for the church in 1 Corinthians 3:10-11 (NKJV) “According to the grace of God, which was given to me, as a wise master builder I have laid the foundation, and another builds on it. But let each one of you take heed how he builds on it. For no other foundation can anyone lay than that which is laid, which is Jesus Christ.” [my own emphasis]

Because the foundation of the church is no longer the sturdy bedrock of the Word of God, when it comes to difficult periods of life such as losing a job, contracting a terrible disease, being divorced from your spouse, the death of a loved one etc. there is no foundation to turn to and lean on in order to get through it.


Because the prosperity gospel of progressive Christianity has removed all of the parts of the bible which deal with times of trial and replaced it with a manifestation ideology. They tell people that God only provides blessings, not curses, and therefore if trouble visits your house, it was entirely your own fault and God has abandoned you.

This is a grotesque lie.

It’s designed to undermine a person’s relationship with God, which is why my opinion is that progressive Christianity is a deliberate attempt to demolish faith. It’s also the oldest lie in the book (literally) and the basis of the story of Job. God doesn’t allow Job to endure trials because He’s trying to prove His own glory, He allows the trials to testify that Job is worthy of God’s love and not a fickle believer who is only righteous when things are going well, which is what Satan accuses Job of.

When you are conformed to the values of the materialistic world and think that God is merely an optional extra or some kind of genie who grants wishes, you build on shifting sand which eventually erodes beneath you and the house collapses. It’s a little bit like the progressive churches are dodgy housing developers who sell houses where they have extensively cut corners and then as soon as you notice cracks appearing, they file for bankruptcy so you can’t get compensation.

Somewhere up the chain of their hierarchy they’re aware of the Ponzi scheme. At the very least the entities planting the ideas are. Everyone else is lost in the deception, trying to make it work for their life and feeling a deep sense of shame and personal failure when it doesn’t.

In true Christianity, when the storms come and damage your house, the bedrock remains and you can rebuild. God never promises that troubles won’t arise, but He promises that you will be better able to weather them if you put trust in Him.

Matthew 7:24-27 (NKJV) Jesus says “Therefore, whoever hears these sayings of Mine, and does them, I will liken him to a wise man who built his house on the rock: and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it did not fall, for it was founded on the rock. But everyone who hears these sayings of Mine, and does not do them, will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand: and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it fell. And great was its fall.”

At the end of the day, you might be a little weather-beaten, but you won’t be spiritually homeless.

Isiah 25:4 (NKJV) says “For you have been a strength to the poor, A strength to the needy in his distress, A refuge from the storm, A shade from the heat; For the blast of the terrible ones is as a storm against the wall.”

So how do we seek true love from God? How do we know when it’s real?

In his book, The Four Loves, C.S. Lewis dissects different forms of love and in particular compares Gift-Love with Need-Love. He describes Gift-Love as a sense of doing someone else a favour by loving them, rather than a heartfelt need for proximity; “It would be a bold and silly creature that came before its Creator with the boast ‘I’m no beggar. I love you disinterestedly.’” This is the form of almost cynical love which Satan espouses as the only possible variety because as soon as someone fails to be perfect they immediately become un-lovable and the gift-giver can revoke their gift and walk away. Satan would advise humanity to never approach love from a place of need or vulnerability because it is disgusting and pathetic to him, and shames us for being “selfish” in our needs.

But it isn’t pathetic to God. Instead, he is the anxious Father waiting on the road for his son to return home so he might provide the comfort and support his child badly needs, as in the parable of the prodigal son. God needs to be needed in our lives. As Lewis put it; “…no one calls a child selfish because it turns for comfort to its mother; nor an adult who turns to his fellow ‘for company’… Since we do in reality need one another…”

C.S. Lewis explains how difficult times can become an opportunity to fully know the love of God when we previously could have taken it or left it from a height of complacency: “A very strange contrary follows. Man approaches God most nearly when he is in one sense least like God. For what can be more unlike than fullness and need, sovereignty and humility, righteousness and penitence, limitless power and a cry for help?” Because we are so unlike the divinity of God, we cannot offer Him anything He needs other than our confession that we truly need Him in our lives. Often this sort of approach to offering love is very humbling, which is why we don’t seek it unless we have to.

It would be easier for us to offer love from a place of strength and independence so that we can reject before we are rejected and hurt before we become hurt. It’s the reason why it is easier to give charity than to receive it.

Love is a risk which demands vulnerability, and we cannot receive love if we don’t acknowledge that we need it. Romans 5:5 (NKJV) says “Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured into our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.” This describes the quenching of our thirst for love as Jesus said to the woman at the well when He promised living water (John 4:14).

You have to ask for it first but you’ll never ask if you never need and the prosperity gospel tells you to seek all of the earthly satisfactions so that you may never be in need again. Progressive Christianity also rejects the notion that we fall short of God’s plan as mere humans and that we need His Holy Spirit to edify us and make us whole. Instead, they push a notion they call “Christ-consciousness” which claims an equal footing to God and removes the necessity of God.

True love is inter-dependent not independent. The Gottman Institute of relationship research has been studying couples for decades and they emphatically state that relationships don’t last unless people know this basic truth and take care of the relationship from the knowledge that the other person’s love really does matter. Of course, this can’t be one-sided, which is why we can’t just demand that God loves us regardless of how we treat Him while we ignore His basic requests for the health of the relationship.

When we fail to put love into perspective as both a necessity and a responsibility, then we effectively push it away and treat it with cynicism. When we prepare for disappointment, we become disappointing.

And that’s progressive Christianity in a nutshell: disappointing.

For further reading and in-depth analysis of the doctrine of progressive Christianity I recommend two books:

Another Gospel by Alisa Childers

Doctrine of Demons by Carolyn Hamlett & Loren Grace

I also made a video on how Hitler invented “positive Christianity” as a way to pervert the bible and justify genocide:

Why I Left Witchcraft for Jesus

Earlier this year my YouTube channel took off. I amassed 43,000 subscribers. It seemed like all of my dreams were coming true after two years of hard work and bitter struggles.

To the audience watching, it looked like an aspirational practice which afforded me powerful gifts like divination. I was manifesting my best life. I was woke. I was tapped into the truth and the correct path of contributing to society…

Except I wasn’t.

Behind the façade of social media was someone who’s life had crumbled around her and who was desperately scrambling to understand the continuously elusive cloud of truth. As soon as I uncovered one secret, I had a dozen more questions.

Perpetual questions with no solid answers.

My mental health began to decline as my marriage collapsed, I lost my home, gave up my career to chase the clouds, lost all of my belongings except my clothes, my car and my pets, then started to succumb to depression and anxiety.

For some reason, this practice which had supposedly been the key to health, wealth and happiness was destroying everything I had achieved in my normal life. I was isolated, broke, living in a house which had no interior wall linings, had begun yet another abusing relationship, and surviving on welfare while I struggled to keep up with my university studies which were the only option out of poverty.

Even in the midst of evidence that doing tarot readings for clients was detrimental to me, for some reason I persisted in the misguided belief that I was serving God…

Yes, you heard that correctly.

How does someone become so deceived that they genuinely think they’re serving God through witchcraft and divination?

A large portion is very much cultural these days. It’s frightening to say this now, but I had so much positive reinforcement from all over the place that I seriously don’t think that most people know what the bible actually says, including priests and pastors. At one point, I actually got an email from a female pastor saying that she believed I was doing something good.

In my previous career as a librarian I would be surrounded by groups using the meeting rooms for yoga, meditation and energy healing. The group of mediums I joined held their weekly psychic sessions in a church hall. As a kid I went to church with reiki teachers.

I had been raised “Christian” in a mixture of episcopal and charismatic churches (my mother moved frequently) and given a very superficial version of the bible aimed at ignoring the real dangers of straying from God and instead permitting all sorts of un-biblical ideas to be given equal weight through cherry-picking verses out of context and misapplying them. My mother is still fairly well deceived by the progressive church’s prosperity and tolerance gospel, but she watches my videos now and is getting a bible studying in the process.

Even the other witchcraft channels I watched talked about angels, Christ-consciousness and God as though this was completely complimentary.

I had no idea. None of the people I knew had any idea. We were all completely deceived.

The lie is so slick, well-packaged, and sincerely promoted by devotees like myself, that a lot of people don’t even have a fighting chance. The cultural shift is so anti-Christian that it is swiftly becoming illegal to go to Church or quote the bible and the rhetoric says that to be Christian is to hate people and to be bigoted.

I doubt anyone wants to be either of those things.

However, that’s a manipulation which I had seen before when dealing with narcissists and I started to push back against the culture, even while still being a witch. Narcissism will tell a victim that to deny the abuser their “right” to exploit the victim, well… that makes the victim a big fat meanie who is infringing on the narcissists’ pound of flesh. How dare they!

The process of waking up from the deception started with an increasing awareness of the narcissistic sickness within the culture. From there my research led me to Marxism and Nihilism underpinning a great deal of education and secular philosophy.

Even without becoming Christian the witches were turning on me.

My politics was not “correct” according to the Facebook tribunals which would pop up behind my back, even though I had never advocated for removing people’s basic human rights or treating anyone without kindness. I was deemed “too conservative” despite having lobbied for unions and voting Green my whole life.

Merely stressing the importance of critical thinking and research was sacrilege in witchcraft.

I was officially politically homeless.

I was also becoming more isolated and stressed, having moved interstate and then forced into lockdown. Accessing mental health services was a slow process which took months and in the meantime I needed to figure out how to help myself.

I quit giving tarot readings.

They sucked a lot of energy out of me, often making me dizzy to the point I would be afraid of dissociating, which is a scary thought. My hands shook badly and I would suffer occasional panic attacks when put under merely mild levels of stress.

I needed a community and I needed to meet new people and get out of the house from time-to-time. In the small communities of Tasmania, most people can be found at church, so I decided it might be a good idea to tap into a community that way.

Boy, was I in for a bad time.

Apparently, when you dabble in mediumship, divination, manifestation, shamanic journeying and witchcraft… you make contact with the demonic realm.

They do not take kindly to people making contact with Jesus.

The first sign I was under spiritual attack was when I tried to go to church the first time. After such a long night of disturbed sleep, it was not possible to drag myself out of the house on Sunday morning.

Then I tried to buy a bible. For an entire day I drove to three different towns trying to get to a book store which might stock one. All of the potential shops were closed precisely within half an hour of me arriving at that destination. The next week when I made the trip again I got close to the destination and started feeling light-headed. I was only just able to park my car and then sat on a bench for a while to steady my breathing and gather my wits before I could walk to the shop and make my purchase.

But I did it; I finally had a bible.

For the first time I could remember I was properly reading the word of God and it actually made sense to me. So many things clicked into place. Stories which had seemed absurd, or superfluous, or purely mythical, or downright disturbing… they suddenly took on all-new meaning which I had not previously understood because I hadn’t learned about how sophisticated and thoroughly evil the devil really is.

That weekend I scoured the area to find a church service which wasn’t on a Sunday morning. Luckily, there was one that very Saturday evening and I loitered outside for the doors to open so I wouldn’t become waylaid again. My strategy worked out and I attended church for the first time in 15 years.

After that was when the nightmares started.

When demons take their gloves off, you really know about it. I was visited in my dreams by entities whose eyes would turn black as they lunged to sink their teeth in. however, far from being intimidated or deterred, it solidified my resolve to get them out of my life forever through prayer and obedience. If Jesus had already declared victory over the powers of darkness, there was no way I was going to be bullied by a snivelling loser.

That being said, the devil knows how to work through other people, not just messing with your dreams, and he turned friends against me when I came out on the YouTube channel. The attacks may have been deeply personal and highly derogatory, but once more it fortified my resolve to burn that bridge forever and I ended up deleting both the channel and the website.

So here I am, starting over.

In true smiting form, Jesus of Nazareth has sent the Holy Spirit to purge the unclean spirits from my life and break the chains of my bondage. Anxiety, confusion, insecurities, depression, fear… I’m finally free.

I can start living my life in truth and light.


Problems with Meditation

Meditation and mindfulness are heavily promoted by mental health professionals these days, with an endless stream of studies produced to support it. However, unlike a comprehensive drug trial, there has been a scandalous lack of research into the risks involved in meditation and equally less investment in defining the parameters of techniques and teaching, or advising at-risk patients on the side-effects.

The terms can also be pretty woolly as to what is meant by “meditation” or “mindfulness” and which techniques are actually beneficial versus the problematic varieties.

Meditation isn’t just a practice for the mind, it has deeply spiritual roots which are also not acknowledged by the Psychology profession. Treating a spiritual practice as though it is purely mechanistic both undermines the religious source it comes from as well as ignores the spiritual activity which is likely to occur. It’s a purely atheistic mindset and it has real-world repercussions.

People can be highly offended by any cautionary advice when dealing with spiritual activity, to the extent that they’ll become enraged at my saying that meditation is risky. It’s interesting that people are so willing to play with their spiritual wellbeing in reckless ways, and only want spiritual teachers who will affirm the notion of experiential validity, because in reality we would never behave that way in any other facet of life. If we went to a financial adviser and they told us not to worry about our finances, but to just spend in ways that make us feel good, we could be pretty confident that they’re not a good financial adviser, right? So why do we do that spiritually? That makes zero sense.

And yet, that is the meditation advice in a nutshell: don’t worry about what the source of spiritual connection is, just accept it into your soul and psyche without question… if something looks shiny or makes lots of pretty promises, it must be good!

That’s absurd.

A lot of psychologists recommend meditation but the type of meditation being pushed is from eastern religious practices, and even they acknowledge in their historical texts that it has huge dangers associated. In an article published by the Atlantic in 2014 they interviewed a psychology doctor running research into the negative effects of meditation and also running a recovery centre for people who have suffered psychotic breaks during meditation practices. The article contains some revealing insights about the eastern traditions of meditation being practiced by uninitiated people in the west today.

The types of meditation being recommended are literally the sort designed to bring about an existential crisis: anicca (impermanence); dukkha (dissatisfaction); and anatta (no-self). It’s no wonder that some of the monks attempting to plunge into this nihilistic void go insane and kill themselves.

According to another article by Medical News Today, they quote a research paper published by Plos One which found that 25% of regular meditation practitioners have experienced at least one psychological disturbance directly related to the practice.

A quarter.

A quarter of people who meditate.

One in four.

Those are insane numbers. And that’s actually a conservative estimate, because a study conducted in 1992 cited in a Guardian article recorded a number as high as 63% reporting adverse effects. This article from the Guardian goes on to suggest that a lot of the adverse effects are being deliberately ignored or even suppressed by shaming anyone who reports them for two very distinct reasons, both of which revolve entirely around greed and not around wellbeing.

For one thing, it’s a big industry now worth billions of dollars, and secondly it absolves employers of the responsibility to take care of the health of their workers by placing the onus on the worker to manage their stress instead of the employer reducing the stress.

The known risk factors discovered by the scant studies we have are:

  • Being Male
  • NOT having a religious belief
  • Going to a meditation retreat

The retreats are the most risky, reporting hospitalisation of their attendees, some of whom do not recover their sanity.

Some of the stories from people who have suffered psychosis are absolutely horrific. Both the Guardian and Atlantic articles detail case studies of real-life victims which involve hallucinations, panic attacks, passing out, suicidal thoughts, hospitalisation, relationship breakdowns, inability to work, and strange sexual urges.

As usual, whenever anyone has these negative experiences, instead of reassessing the practice, whoever is running the program blames the victim and abandons them to a living hell.

But, you know… love and light.

One of the arguments in favour of eastern meditation is that it changes brainwave frequencies from the daytime alert state of beta waves into the little understood frequency of alpha waves associated with falling asleep, listening to music and prayer. However, this is an argument based purely on correlational evidence, not causational, and also implies that the pure mechanistic presence of something means that it must be GOOD.

If that sort of logic was applied to other areas of life, then people could hypothesise that there’s zero difference between consenting sex and rape, but somehow we differentiate between the two… why? Because we know that one causes harm and the other does not.

Just because a mechanism is present or works in a similar way, such as the presence of alpha waves for both prayer and eastern meditation, this is not proof that they have equal outcomes.

As I mentioned before, the alpha state is a brainwave frequency seen most commonly in the hypnogogic and hypnopompic states of going to sleep and waking up. It’s an intermediary brain state between sleep and alert consciousness, so we still have some level of awareness, but also have a natural lowering of our defences. This transition state is when people experience sleep paralysis.

To a lot of scientists this is simply a glitch in our mechanisms where the body is off-line as it would be during sleep, but our conscious awareness has kicked in when normally we would simply be dreaming, except that REM, the dreaming brain state, is more akin to wakeful beta waves than it is to alpha waves, which means that it’s potentially not the same as dreaming.

The hypnagogic state and alpha waves are also associated with phenomena such as hallucinations and lucid dreams. A lot of New Age and pagan spiritual activity encourages lucid dreaming and astral travel, but somehow it’s also understood that sleep paralysis is plagued with negative entities, known in Christianity as demons, and the recounts are remarkably consistent over time and between cultures.

Experiences such as leaving your body and seeing it from above, hearing a familiar voice shout your name, sounds of electronic zapping or high-pitched tones, feeling another presence in the room, seeing shadow figures, being choked and crushed by an entity, being sexually molested, visions of demons hovering above your face… all of the experiences are fearful, unpleasant and against the person’s will as evidenced by the fact they can’t move or speak to fend off the attacker.

Hypnosis is another method of hacking the brain through altering the brainwaves. It is understood by practitioners that the alpha state allows access to the more subconscious theta state. Through this access point people can become subject to memory implants among other alterations to their psyche, such as reducing addictive desires. As a tool, it is a neutral mechanism, but it can be used for both beneficial outcomes and harmful ones.

So why are mental health professionals persistently oblivious to the pit-falls of meditation if it involves the same outcomes as sleep paralysis?

For one thing, they have heavily biased research informing their advice, which is deviating clients away from genuinely helpful methods such as CBT, but also the research is being conflated with research on prayer because they involve the same brain mechanisms outlined above.

As I said before, mechanics does not constitute equal outcomes, but people are so determined to avoid God at all costs that they’ll cling to a thoroughly defunct practice until it literally collapses underneath them.

So how is prayer different?


There’s a big difference between meditating on existential dread, or meditating on physical bodily functions, and actually praying or contemplating a higher power which fulfills our need for parental-esque guidance and comfort. NBC News published an article on Better Health which examined the power of prayer to fight addiction and assist with mastering tumultuous emotions.

The article also looked at the neurochemical science behind prayer which has been proven to supply the brain with the social-bonding hormone oxytocin. You literally form a personal bond with God similar to a secure family relationship. It might not make your problem disappear, but it helps you feel less alone while facing them. It also found that Alcoholics Anonymous participants could visibly overcome an addictive response through prayer evidenced on fMRI imaging.

Unfortunately, as usual, the article associated the prayer research with meditation, even though there was no connection evidenced in the studies.

Pope Benedict (when he was still Cardinal Ratzinger) wrote about Christian meditation and prayer using the teachings of St Augustine as a reference for navigating the digital age:

“The spiritual restlessness arising from a life subjected to the driving pace of a technologically advanced society … brings a certain number of Christians to seek in these methods of prayer a path to interior peace and psychic balance.”

“Without doubt, a Christian needs certain periods of retreat into solitude to be recollected and, in God’s presence, rediscover his path.”

“On this topic St. Augustine is an excellent teacher: if you want to find God, he says, abandon the exterior world and re-enter into yourself. However, he continues, do not remain in yourself, but go beyond yourself because you are not God: He is deeper and greater than you…. To remain in oneself: this is the real danger.”

Philippians 4:6-8 (NKJV) says;

“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything in prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy – meditate on these things.”

This is how the bible advises to meditate; specifically on the word of God, and on the good things that he has given to you. NOT on your own breathing and the existential heat-death of the universe. The aim of Christian meditation isn’t to run away or deny our problems, but to ask God for assistance and spend time reflecting on how we might solve our problems with the help of the Holy Spirit. God then grants us peace of mind.

Perhaps this is why the studies on negative effects from meditation found that religious faith was an inoculation against a psychotic break? Rather than becoming overwhelmed, they can turn to God instead to find what they need.